The nanny

The sky is filled with clouds tonight
Dare I sink any deeper?

I found you and your wife’s
Antidepressants in the
Bathroom upstairs 
I was a little bit drunk
Talking to you on the phone
About nothing & everything 

I weighed myself on
The scale in your bathroom
For the first time in
Over a year
I can feel myself slipping

Chinese herbs making me 
Bleed early  
A crazed look in her eyes
An attempt at slow living